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About the author






Sophie Kinsella is a former financial journalist and the author of the bestselling Shopaholic novels, including “Shopaholic and Sister”, as well as “Can You Keep a Secret? ”. She lives in England with her family.

Five fun facts about Sophie Kinsella:

1. Sophie's birthday is in December 12th, which makes her a Sagittarius. That must be why her books are optimistic, easy-going, and filled with truth, honesty, and free-spirited fun.

2. In her fridge you'll always find white wine, half-fat milk, and pesto.

3. Sophie is addicted to shoes, British soap opera EastEnders, and pancakes with maple syrup (for which she blames all her trips to the States and Canada!)

4. Her guilty pleasure is chocolate.

5. When she sits down to write, Sophie always brings a cup of coffee, switches off all the phones, and turns on the music loudly. If she's feeling really energetic, she might have a little dance around the room before she sits down to work!

 

 

CAN YOU KEEP A SECRET? ” BY SOPHIE KINSELLA

READING TASKS AND ACTIVITIES

 

SECTION 1 (Chapters 1-3)

Read the suggested chapters and do the tasks that follow.

 

ONE

 

Of course I have secrets.

Of course I do. Everyone has a few secrets. It's completely normal. I'm sure I don't have any more than anybody else.

I'm not talking about big, earth-shattering secrets. Not the-president-is-planning-to-bomb-Japan-and-only-Will-Smith-can-save-the-world type secrets. Just normal, everyday little secrets.

Like for example, here are a few random secrets of mine, off the top of my head:

1.My Kate Spade bag is a fake.

2.I love sweet sherry, the least cool drink in the universe.

3.I have no idea what NATO stands for. Or even what it is.

4.I weigh 9 stone 3. Not 8 stone 3, like my boyfriend Connor thinks. (Although in my defence, I was planning to go on a diet when I told him that. And to be fair, it is only one number different.)

5.I've always thought Connor looks a bit like Ken. As in Barbie and Ken.

6.Sometimes, when we're right in the middle of passionate sex, I suddenly want to laugh.

7. I lost my virginity in the spare bedroom with Danny Nussbaum, while Mum and Dad were
downstairs watching Ben Hur.

8.I've already drunk the wine that Dad told me to lay down for twenty years.

9.Sammy the goldfish at home isn't the same gold-fish that Mum and Dad gave me to look after when they went to Egypt.

10. When my colleague Artemis really annoys me, I feed her plant orange juice. (Which is pretty much every day.)

11. I once had this weird lesbian dream about my flat-mate Lissy.

12. My G-string is hurting me.

13. I've always had this deep down conviction that I'm not like everybody else, and there's an amaz­ingly exciting new life waiting for me just around the corner.

14. I have no idea what this guy in the grey suit is going on about.

15. Plus I've already forgotten his name.

And I only met him ten minutes ago.

'We believe in logistical formative alliances, ' he's saying in a nasal, droning voice, 'both above and below the line.'

'Absolutely! ' I reply brightly, as though to say: Doesn't everybody?

Logistical. What does that mean, again?

Oh God. What if they ask me?

Don't be stupid, Emma. They won't suddenly demand, 'What does logistical mean? ' I'm a fellow marketing professional, aren't I? Obviously I know these things.

And anyway, if they mention it again I'll change the subject. Or I'll say I'm post-logistical or something.

The important thing is to keep confident and busi­nesslike. I can do this. This is my big chance and I'm not going to screw it up.

I'm sitting in the offices of Glen Oil's headquarters in Glasgow, and as I glance at my reflection in the window, I look just like a top businesswoman. My hair is straightened, I'm wearing discreet earrings like they tell you to in How-to-win-that-job articles, and I've got on my smart new Jigsaw suit. (At least, it's practically new. I got it from the Cancer Research shop and sewed on a button to replace the missing one, and you can hardly tell.)

I'm here representing the Panther Corporation, which is where I work. The meeting is to finalize a promotional arrangement between the new cranberry-flavoured Panther Prime sports drink and Glen Oil, and I flew up this morning from London, especially. (The company paid, and everything!)

When I arrived, the Glen Oil marketing guys started on this long, show-offy 'who's-travelled-the-most? ' conversation about airmiles and the red-eye to Washington - and I think I bluffed pretty con­vincingly. (Except when I said I'd flown Concorde to Ottawa, and it turns out Concorde doesn't go to Ottawa.) But the truth is, this is the first time I've ever had to travel for a deal.

OK. The real truth is, this is the first deal I've ever done, full stop. I've been at the Panther Corporation for eleven months as a marketing assistant, and until now all I've been allowed to do is type out copy, arrange meetings for other people, get the sandwiches and pick up my boss's dry-cleaning.

So this is kind of my big break. And I've got this secret little hope that if I do this well, maybe I'll get promoted. The ad for my job said 'possibility of promotion after a year', and on Monday I'm having my yearly appraisal meeting with my boss, Paul. I looked up 'Appraisals' in the staff induction book, and it said they are 'an ideal opportunity to discuss possibilities for career advancement'.

Career advancement! At the thought, I feel a familiar stab of longing in my chest. It would just show Dad I'm not a complete loser. And Mum. And Kerry. If I could go home and casually say, 'By the way, I've been promoted to Marketing Executive.'

Emma Corrigan, Marketing Executive.

Emma Corrigan, Senior Vice-President (Marketing.)

As long as everything goes well today. Paul said the deal was done and dusted and all I had to do was nod and shake their hands, and even I should be able to manage that. And so far, I reckon it's going really well.

OK, so I don't understand about 90 per cent of what they're saying. But then I didn't understand much of my GCSE French Oral either, and I still got a B.

'Rebranding... analysis... cost-effective..."

The man in the grey suit is still droning on about something or other. As casually as possible, I extend my hand and inch his business card towards me so I can read it.

Doug Hamilton. That's right. OK, I can remember this. Doug. Dug. Easy. I'll picture a shovel. Together with a ham. Which... which looks ill... and...

OK, forget this. I'll just write it down.

I write down 'rebranding' and 'Doug Hamilton' on my notepad and give an awkward little wriggle. God, my knickers really are uncomfortable. I mean, G-strings are never that comfortable at the best of times, in my opinion, but these are particularly bad. Which could be because they're two sizes too small.

Which could possibly be because Connor bought them for me, and told the lingerie assistant I weighed eight stone three. Whereupon she told him I must be size eight. Size eight!

(Frankly, I think she was just being mean. She must have known I was fibbing.)

So it's Christmas Eve, and we're exchanging presents, and I unwrap this pair of gorgeous pale pink silk knickers. Size eight. And I basically have two options.

A: Confess the truth: 'Actually these are too small, I'm more of a 12, and by the way, I don't really weigh eight stone three.' Or...

B: Shoe-horn myself into them.

Actually, it was fine. You could hardly see the red lines on my skin afterwards. And all it meant was that I had to quickly cut all the labels out of my clothes so Connor would never realize.

Since then, I've hardly ever worn this particular set of underwear, needless to say. But every so often I see them looking all nice and expensive in the drawer and think, Oh come on, they can't be that tight, and somehow squeeze into them. Which is what I did this morning. I even decided I must have lost weight, because they didn't feel too bad.

I am such a deluded moron.

'... unfortunately since rebranding... major re­think... feel we need to be considering alternative synergies...'

Up to now I've just been sitting and nodding, thinking this business meeting lark is really easy. But now Doug Hamilton's voice starts to impinge on my consciousness. What's he saying?

'... two products diverging... becoming incom­patible...'

What was that about incompatible? What was that about a major rethink? I feel a jolt of alarm. Maybe this isn't just waffle. Maybe he's actually saying some­thing. Quick, listen.

'We appreciate the functional and synergetic partnership that Panther and Glen Oil have enjoyed in the past, ' Doug Hamilton is saying. 'But you'll agree that clearly we're going in different directions.'

Different directions?

Is that what he's been talking about all this time?

My stomach gives an anxious lurch.

He can't be—

Is he trying to pull out of the deal?

'Excuse me, Doug, ' I say, in my most relaxed voice. 'Obviously I was closely following what you were saying earlier.' I give a friendly, we're-all-professionals-together smile. 'But if you could just... um, recap the situation for all our benefits...'

In plain English, I beg silently.

Doug Hamilton and the other guy exchange glances.

'We're a little unhappy about your brand values, ' says Doug Hamilton.

'My brand values? ' I echo in panic.

'The brand values of the product, ' he says, giving me an odd look. 'As I've been explaining, we here at Glen Oil are going through a rebranding process at the moment, and we see our new image very much as a caring petrol, as our new daffodil logo demonstrates. And we feel Panther Prime, with its emphasis on sport and competition, is simply too aggressive.'

'Aggressive? ' I stare at him, bewildered. 'But... it's a fruit drink.'

This makes no sense. Glen Oil is fume-making, world-ruining petrol. Panther Prime is an inno­cent cranberry-flavoured drink. How can it be too aggressive?

'The values it espouses.' He gestures to the marketing brochures on the table. 'Drive. Elitism. Masculinity. The very slogan, " Don't Pause". Frankly, it seems a little dated.' He shrugs. 'We just don't think a joint initiative will be possible.'

No. No. This can't be happening. He can't be pulling out.

Everyone at the office will think it was my fault. They'll think I cocked it up and I'm completely crap.

My heart is thumping. My face is hot. I can't let this happen. But what do I say? I haven't prepared anything. Paul said it was all set up and all I had to do was shake their hands.

'We'll certainly discuss it again before we make a decision, ' Doug's saying. He gives me a brief smile. 'And as I say, we would like to continue links with the Panther Corporation, so this has been a useful meeting in any case.'

He's pushing back his chair.

I can't let this slip away! I have to try to win them round. I have to try and shut the deal.

Close the deal. That's what I meant.

'Wait! ' I hear myself say. 'Just... wait a moment! I have a few points to make.'

What am I talking about? I have no points to make.

There's a can of Panther Prime sitting on the desk, and I grab it for inspiration. Playing for time, I stand up, walk to the centre of the room and raise the can high into the air where we can all see it.

'Panther Prime is... a sports drink.'

I stop, and there's a polite silence. My face is prickling.

'It... um... it is very...'

Oh God. What am I doing?

Come on, Emma. Think. Think Panther Prime... think Panther Cola... think... think...

Yes! Of course!

OK, start again.

'Since the launch of Panther Cola in the late 1980s, Panther drinks have been a byword for energy, excite­ment and excellence, ' I say fluently.

Thank God. This is the standard marketing blurb for Panther Cola. I've typed it out so many zillions of times, I could recite it in my sleep.

'Panther drinks are a marketing phenomenon, ' I continue. 'The Panther character is one of the most widely recognized in the world, while the classic slogan " Don't Pause" has made it into dictionaries. We are now offering Glen Oil an exclusive opportunity to join with this premium, world-famous brand.'

My confidence growing, I start to stride around the room, gesturing with the can.

'By buying a Panther health drink, the consumer is signalling that he will settle for nothing but the best.' I hit the can sharply with my other hand. 'He expects the best from his energy drink, he expects the best from his petrol, he expects the best from himself.'

I'm flying! I'm fantastic! If Paul could see me now, he'd give me a promotion on the spot!

I come over to the desk and look Doug Hamilton right in the eye. 'When the Panther consumer opens that can, he is making a choice which tells the world who he is. I'm asking Glen Oil to make the same choice.'

As I finish speaking I plant the can firmly in the middle of the desk, reach for the ring pull and, with a cool smile, snap it back.

It's like a volcano erupting.

Fizzy cranberry-flavoured drink explodes in a whoosh out of the can, landing on the desk, drenching the papers and blotters in lurid red liquid... and oh no, please no... spattering all over Doug Hamilton's shirt.

'Fuck! ' I gasp. 'I mean, I'm really sorry...'

'Jesus Christ, ' says Doug Hamilton irritably, standing up and getting a handkerchief out of his pocket. 'Does this stuff stain? '

'Er...' I grab the can helplessly. 'I don't know.'

'I'll get a cloth, ' says the other guy, and leaps to his feet.

The door closes behind him and there's silence, apart from the sound of cranberry drink dripping slowly onto the floor.

I stare at Doug Hamilton, my face hot and blood throbbing through my ears.

'Please..." I say, and clear my husky throat. 'Don't tell my boss.'After all that. I screwed it up.

As I drag my heels across the concourse at Glasgow Airport, I feel completely dejected. Doug Hamilton was quite sweet in the end. He said he was sure the stain would come out, and promised he wouldn't tell Paul what happened. But he didn't change his mind about the deal.

My first big meeting. My first big chance - and this is what happens. I feel like giving up on the whole thing. I feel like phoning the office and saying 'That's it, I'm never coming back again, and by the way, it was me who jammed the photocopier that time.'

But I can't. This is my third career in four years. It has to work. For my own self-worth. For my own self-esteem. And also because I owe my dad four thousand quid.

'So what can I get you? ' says an Australian guy, and I look up dazedly. I've arrived at the airport with an hour to go, and have headed straight for the bar.

'Erm...' My mind is blank. 'Er... white wine. No, actually, a vodka and tonic. Thanks.'

As he moves away, I slump down again in my stool. An air hostess with a French plait comes and sits down, two bar stools away. She smiles at me, and I smile weakly in return.

I don't know how other people manage their careers, I really don't. Like my oldest friend Lissy. She's always known she wanted to be a lawyer — and now, ta-daah! She's a fraud barrister. But I left college with absolutely no clue. My first job was in estate agency, and I only went into it because I've always quite liked looking round houses, plus I met this woman with amazing red lacquered nails at a career fair who told me she made so much money, she'd be able to retire when she was forty.

But the minute I started, I hated it. I hated all the other trainee estate agents. I hated saying things like 'a lovely aspect'. And I hated the way if someone said they could afford £ 300, 000 we were supposed to give them details of houses costing at least £ 400, 000, and then kind of look down our noses, like, 'You only have £ 300, 000? God, you complete loser.'

So after six months I announced I was changing career and was going to be a photographer instead. It was such a fantastic moment, like in a film or some­thing. My dad lent me the money for a photography course and camera, and I was going to launch this amazing new creative career, and it was going to be the start of my new life

Except it didn't quite happen like that.

I mean, for a start, do you have any idea how much a photographer's assistant gets paid?

Nothing. It's nothing.

Which, you know, I wouldn't have minded if anyone had actually offered me a photographer's assistant's job.

I heave a heavy sigh, and gaze at my doleful ex­pression in the mirror behind the bar. As well as everything else, my hair, which I carefully straight­ened with serum this morning, has gone all frizzy. Typical.

At least I wasn't the only one who didn't get anywhere. Out of the eight people on my course, one became instantly successful and now takes photos for Vogue and stuff, one became a wedding photographer, one had an affair with the tutor, one went travelling, one had a baby, one works at Snappy Snaps and one is now at Morgan Stanley.

Meanwhile I got more and more into debt, and started temping and applying for jobs which actually paid money. And eventually, eleven months ago, I started as a marketing assistant at the Panther Corporation.

The barman places a vodka and tonic in front of me, and gives me a quizzical look. 'Cheer up! ' he says. 'It can't be that bad! '

'Thanks, ' I say gratefully, and take a sip. That feels a bit better. I'm just taking a second sip when my mobile starts to ring.

My stomach gives a nervous flip. If it's the office, I'll just pretend I didn't hear.

But it's not, it's our home number flashing on the little screen.

'Hi, ' I say, pressing green.

'Hiya! ' comes Lissy's voice. 'Only me! So how did it go? '

Lissy is my flat mate and my oldest friend in the world. She has tufty dark hair and an IQ of about 600 and is the sweetest person I know.

'It was a disaster, ' I say miserably.

'What happened? Didn't you get the deal? '

'Not only did I not get the deal, I drenched the marketing director of Glen Oil in cranberry drink.'

Along the bar, I can see the air hostess hiding a smile, and I feel myself flush. Great. Now the whole world knows.

'Oh dear.' I can almost feel Lissy trying to think of something positive to say. 'Well, at least you got their attention, ' she says at last. 'At least they won't forget you in a hurry.'

'I suppose, ' I say morosely. 'So, did I have any messages? '

'Oh! Erm... no. I mean, your dad did phone, but... um... you know... it wasn't...' She tails off evasively.

'Lissy. What did he want? '

There's a pause.

'Apparently your cousin's won some industry award, ' she says apologetically. 'They're going to be celebrating it on Saturday as well as your mum's birthday.'

'Oh. Great.'

I slump deeper in my chair. That's all I need. My cousin Kerry triumphantly clutching some silver Best-travel-agent-in-the-world-no-make-that-universe trophy.

'And Connor rang, too, to see how you got on, ' adds Lissy quickly. 'He was really sweet, he said he didn't want to ring your mobile during your meeting in case it disturbed you.'

'Really? '

For the first time today, I feel a lift in spirits.

Connor. My boyfriend. My lovely, thoughtful boyfriend.

'He's such a sweetheart! ' Lissy is saying. 'He said he's tied up in a big meeting all afternoon but he's cancelled his squash game especially, so do you want to go out to supper tonight? '

'Oh, ' I say, with a flicker of pleasure. 'Oh well, that'll be nice. Thanks, Lissy.'

I click off and take another sip of vodka, feeling much more cheerful.

My boyfriend.

It's just like Julie Andrews said. When the dog bites, when the bee stings... I simply remember I have a boyfriend - and suddenly things don't seem quite so completely shit.

Or however she put it.

And not just any boyfriend. A tall, handsome, clever boyfriend, whom Marketing Week called 'one of the brightest sparks in marketing research today'.

I sit nursing my vodka, allowing thoughts of Connor to roll round my brain and comfort me. The way his blond hair shines in the sunshine, and the way he's always smiling. And the way he upgraded all the soft­ware on my computer the other day without me even asking, and the way he... he...

My mind's gone blank. This is ridiculous. I mean, there's so much that is wonderful about Connor. From his... his long legs. Yes. And his broad shoulders. To the time he looked after me when I had the flu. I mean, how many boyfriends do that? Exactly.

I'm so lucky, I really am.

I put the phone away, run my fingers through my hair, and glance at the clock behind the bar. Forty minutes to go before the flight. Not long now. Nerves are starting to creep over me like little insects, and I take a deep gulp of vodka, draining my glass.

It'll be fine, I tell myself for the zillionth time. It'll be absolutely fine.

I'm not frightened. I'm just... I'm just...

OK. I am frightened.

16. I'm scared of flying.

I've never told anyone I'm scared of flying. It just sounds so lame. And I mean, it's not like I'm phobic or anything. It's not like I can't get on a plane. It's just... all things being equal, I would prefer to be on the ground.

I never used to be scared. But over the last few years, I've gradually got more and more nervous. I know it's completely irrational. I know thousands of people fly every day and it's practically safer than lying in bed. You have less chance of being in a plane crash than... than finding a man in London, or something.

But still. I just don't like it.

Maybe I'll have another quick vodka.

By the time my flight is called, I've drunk two more vodkas and am feeling a lot more positive. I mean, Lissy's right. At least I made an impression, didn't I? At least they'll remember who I am. As I stride towards the gate, clutching my briefcase, I almost start to feel like a confident businesswoman again. A couple of people smile at me as they pass, and I smile broadly back, feeling a warm glow of friendliness. You see. The world's not so bad after all. It's all just a question of being positive. Anything can happen in life, can't it? You never know what's round the next corner.

I reach the entrance to the plane, and there at the door, taking boarding passes, is the air hostess with the French plait who was sitting at the bar earlier.

'Hi again, ' I say smiling. 'This is a coincidence! '

The air hostess stares at me.

'Hi. Erm..."

'What? '

Why does she look embarrassed?

'Sorry. It's just... did you know that..." She gestures awkwardly to my front.

'What is it? ' I say, pleasantly. I look down, and freeze, aghast.

Somehow my silky shirt has been unbuttoning itself while I've been walking along. Three buttons have come undone and it's gaping at the front.

My bra shows. My pink lacy bra. The one that went a bit blobby in the wash.

That's why those people were smiling at me. Not because the world is a nice place, but because I'm Pink-Blobby-Bra-Woman.

'Thanks, ' I mutter, and do up the buttons with fumbling fingers, my face hot with humiliation.

'It hasn't been your day, has it? ' says the air hostess sympathetically, holding out a hand for my boarding pass. 'Sorry, I couldn't help overhearing, earlier.'

'That's all right.' I raise a half-smile. 'No, it hasn't been the best day of my life.' There's a short silence as she studies my boarding pass.

'Tell you what, ' she says in a low voice. 'Would you like an on-board upgrade? '

'A what? ' I stare at her blankly.

'Come on. You deserve a break.'

'Really? But... can you just upgrade people like that? '

'If there are spare seats, we can. We use our dis­cretion. And this flight is so short.' She gives me a conspiratorial smile. 'Just don't tell everyone, OK? '

She leads me into the front section of the plane and gestures to a big, wide, comfortable seat. I've never been upgraded before in my life! I can't quite believe she's really letting me do this.

'Is this first class? ' I whisper, taking in the hushed, luxury atmosphere. A man in a smart suit is tapping at a laptop to my right, and two elderly women in the corner are plugging themselves into headsets.

'Business class. There's no first class on this flight.' She lifts her voice to a normal volume. 'Is everything OK for you? '

'It's perfect! Thanks very much.'

'No problem.' She smiles again and walks away, and I push my briefcase under the seat in front.

Wow. This really is lovely. Big wide seats, and footrests, and everything. This is going to be a completely pleasurable experience from start to finish, I tell myself firmly. I reach for my seatbelt and buckle it up nonchalantly, trying to ignore the flutters of apprehension in my stomach.

'Would you like some champagne? '

It's my friend the air hostess, beaming down at me.

'That would be great, ' I say. 'Thanks! '

Champagne!

'And for you, sir? Some champagne? '

The man in the seat next to mine hasn't even looked up yet. He's wearing jeans and an old sweatshirt and is staring out of the window. As he turns to answer I catch a glimpse of dark eyes, stubble; a deep frown etched on his forehead.

'No thanks. Just a brandy. Thanks.'

His voice is dry and has an American accent. I'm about to ask him politely where he's from, but he immediately turns back and stares out of the window again.

Which is fine, because to be honest, I'm not much in the mood for talking either.

 

TWO

 

OK. The truth is, I don't like this.

I know it's business class, I know it's all lovely luxury. But my stomach is still a tight knot of fear.

While we were taking off I counted very slowly with my eyes closed, and that kind of worked. But I ran out of steam at about 350. So now I'm just sitting, sipping champagne, reading an article on '30 Things To Do Before You're 30' in Cosmo. I'm trying very hard to look like a relaxed business-class top marketing execu­tive. But oh God. Every tiny sound makes me start; every judder makes me catch my breath.

With an outward veneer of calm I reach for the laminated safety instructions and run my eyes over them. Safety exits. Brace position. If life jackets are required, please assist the elderly and children first. Oh God-

Why am I even looking at this? How will it help me to gaze at pictures of little stick people jumping into the ocean while their plane explodes behind them? I stuff the safety instructions quickly back in their pocket and take a gulp of champagne.

'Excuse me, madam.' An air hostess with red curls has appeared by my side. 'Are you travelling on business? '

'Yes, ' I say, smoothing down my hair with a prickle of pride. 'Yes I am.' Facilities', on which there's a photo of businesspeople talking animatedly in front of a clipboard with a wavy graph on it.

'This is some information about our new business class lounge at Gatwick. We provide full conference call facilities, and meeting rooms, should you require them. Would you be interested? '

OK. I am a top businesswoman. I am a top high-flying business executive.

'Quite possibly, ' I say, looking nonchalantly at the leaflet. 'Yes, I may well use one of these rooms to... brief my team. I have a large team, and obviously they need a lot of briefing. On business matters.' I clear my throat. 'Mostly... logistical.'

'Would you like me to book you a room now? ' says the hostess helpfully.

'Er, no thanks, ' I say after a pause, 'My team is currently... at home. I gave them all the day off.'

'Right.' The hostess looks a little puzzled.

'But another time, maybe, ' I say quickly. 'And while you're here - I was just wondering. Is that sound normal? '

'What sound? ' The air hostess cocks her head.

'That sound. That kind of whining, coming from the wing? '

'I can't hear anything.' She looks at me sympatheti­cally. 'Are you a nervous flyer? '

'No! ' I say at once, and give a little laugh. 'No, I'm not nervous. I just... was wondering. Just out of interest.'

'I'll see if I can find out for you, ' she says kindly. 'Here you are, sir. Some information about our executive facilities at Gatwick.'

The American man takes his leaflet wordlessly and puts it down without even looking at it, and the hostess moves on, staggering a little as the plane gives a bump.

Why is the plane bumping?

Oh God. A sudden rush of fear hits me with no warning. This is madness. Madness! Sitting in this big heavy box, with no way of escape, thousands and thousands of feet above the ground...

I can't do this on my own. I have an overpowering need to talk to someone. Someone reassuring. Someone safe.

Connor.

Instinctively I fish out my mobile phone, but im­mediately the air hostess swoops down on me.

'I'm afraid you can't use that on board the plane, ' she says with a bright smile. 'Could you please ensure that it's switched off? '

'Oh. Er... sorry.'

Of course I can't use my mobile. They've only said it about fifty-five zillion times. I am such a durr-brain. Anyway, never mind. It doesn't matter. I'm fine. I put the phone away in my bag, and try to concentrate on an old episode of Fawlty Towers which is showing on the screen.

Maybe I'll start counting again. Three hundred and forty-nine. Three hundred and fifty. Three hundred and—

Fuck. My head jerks up. What was that bump? Did we just get hit?

OK, don't panic. It was just a bump. I'm sure every­thing's fine. We probably just flew into a pigeon or something. Where was I?

Three hundred and fifty-one. Three hundred and fifty-two. Three hundred and fifty—

And that's it.

That's the moment.

Everything seems to fragment.

I hear the screams like a wave over my head, almost before I realize what's happening.

Oh God. Oh God Oh God Oh God Oh... OH... NO. NO. NO.

We're falling. Oh God, we're falling.

We're plummeting downwards. The plane's drop­ping through the air like a stone. A man over there has just shot up through the air and banged his head on the ceiling. He's bleeding. I'm gasping, clutching onto my seat, trying not to do the same thing, but I can feel myself being wrenched upwards, it's like someone's tugging me, like gravity's suddenly switched the other way. There's no time to think. My mind can't... Bags are flying around, drinks are spilling, one of the cabin crew has fallen over, she's clutching at a seat...

Oh God. Oh God. OK, it's slowing down now. It's... it's better.

Fuck. I just... I just can't... I...

I look at the American man, and he's grasping his seat as tightly as I am.

I feel sick. I think I might be sick. Oh God.

OK. It's... it's kind of... back to normal.

'Ladies and gentlemen, ' comes a voice over the intercom, and everyone's heads jerk up. 'This is your captain speaking.'

My heart's juddering in my chest. I can't listen. I can't think.

'We're currently hitting some clear-air turbulence, and things may be unsteady for a while. I have switched on the seatbelt signs and would ask that you all return to your seats as quickly as—'

There's another huge lurch, and his voice is drowned by screams and cries all round the plane.

It's like a bad dream. A bad rollercoaster dream.

The cabin crew are all strapping themselves into their seats. One of the hostesses is mopping blood on her face. A minute ago they were happily doling out honey-roast peanuts.

This is what happens to other people in other planes. People on safety videos. Not me.

'Please keep calm, ' the captain is saying. 'As soon as we have more information..."

Keep calm? I can't breathe, let alone keep calm. What are we going to do? Are we all supposed to just sit here while the plane bucks like an out-of-control horse?

I can hear someone behind me reciting 'Hail Mary, full of grace...' and a fresh, choking panic sweeps through me. People are praying. This is real.

We're going to die.

We're going to die.

'I'm sorry? ' The American man in the next seat looks at me, his face tense and white.

Did I just say that aloud?

'We're going to die.' I stare into his face. This could be the last person I ever see alive. I take in the lines etched around his dark eyes; his strong jaw, shaded with stubble.

The plane suddenly drops down again, and I give an involuntary shriek.

'I don't think we're going to die, ' he says. But he's gripping his seat-arms, too. 'They said it was just turbulence—'

'Of course they did! ' I can hear the hysteria in my voice. 'They wouldn't exactly say, " OK folks, that's it, you're all goners"! ' The plane gives another terrifying swoop and I find myself clutching the man's hand in panic. 'We're not going to make it. I know we're not. This is it. I'm twenty-five years old, for God's sake. I'm not ready. I haven't achieved anything. I've never had children, I've never saved a life...' My eyes fall randomly on the '30 Things To Do Before You're 30' article. 'I haven't ever climbed a mountain, I haven't got a tattoo, I don't even know if I've got a G spot..."

'I'm sorry? ' says the man, sounding taken aback, but I barely hear him.

'My career's a complete joke. I'm not a top busi­nesswoman at all.' I gesture half-tearfully to my suit. 'I haven't got a team! I'm just a crappy assistant and I just had my first ever big meeting and it was a complete disaster. Half the time I haven't got a clue what people are talking about, I don't know what logistical means, I'm never going to get promoted, and I owe my dad four thousand quid, and I've never really been in love...'

I draw myself up short with a jolt. 'I'm sorry, ' I say, and exhale sharply. 'You don't want to hear all this.'

'That's quite all right, ' says the man.

God. I'm completely losing it.

And anyway, what I just said wasn't true. Because I am in love with Connor. It must be the altitude or something, confusing my mind.

Flustered, I push the hair off my face and try to get a hold of myself. OK, let's try counting again. Three hundred and fifty... six. Three hundred and—

Oh God. Oh God. No. Please. The plane's lurching again. We're plummeting.

'I've never done anything to make my parents proud of me.' The words come spilling out of my mouth before I can stop them. 'Never.'

'I'm sure that's not true, ' says the man nicely.

'It's true. Maybe they used to be proud of me. But then my cousin Kerry came to live with us and all at once it was like my parents couldn't see me any more. All they could see was her. She was fourteen when she arrived, and I was ten, and I thought it was going to be great, you know. Like having an older sister. But it didn't work out like that…’

I can't stop talking. I just can't stop.

Every time the plane bumps or jolts, another torrent of words pours randomly out of my mouth, like water gushing over a waterfall.

It's either talk or scream.

'... she was a swimming champion, and an every­thing champion, and I was just... nothing in comparison...'

'... photography course and I honestly thought it was going to change my life...'

'... eight stone three. But I was planning to go on a diet...'

'I applied for every single job in the world. I was so desperate, I even applied to..."

'... awful girl called Artemis. This new desk arrived the other day, and she just took it, even though I've got this really grotty little desk...'

'... sometimes I water her stupid spider plant with orange juice, just to serve her right...'

'... sweet girl Katie, who works in Personnel. We have this secret code where she comes in and says, " Can I go through some numbers with you, Emma? " and it really means " Shall we nip out to Starbucks...'"

'... awful presents, and I have to pretend I like them...'

'... coffee at work is the most disgusting stuff you've ever drunk, absolute poison..."

'... put " Maths GCSE grade A" on my CV, when I really only got C. I know it was dishonest. I know I shouldn't have done it, but I so wanted to get the job...'

What's happened to me? Normally there's a kind of filter which stops me blurting out everything I'm thinking; which keeps me in check.

But the filter's stopped working. Everything's piling out in a big, random stream, and I can't stop it.

'Sometimes I think I believe in God, because how else did we all get here? But then I think, yes but what about war and stuff...'

'... wear G-strings because they don't give you VPL. But they're so uncomfortable

'... size eight, and I didn't know what to do, so I just said " Wow those are absolutely fantastic...'" '... roasted peppers, my complete favourite food...' '... joined a book group, but I just couldn't get through Great Expectations. So I just skimmed the back and pretended I'd read it...'

'... I gave him all his goldfish food, I honestly don't know what happened...'

'... just have to hear that Carpenters song " Close to You" and I start crying...'

'... really wish I had bigger boobs. I mean, not Page 3 size, not completely enormous and stupid, but you know, bigger. Just to know what it's like...'

'... perfect date would start off with champagne just appearing at the table, as if by magic...'

'... I just cracked, I secretly bought this huge tub of Haagen-Dazs and scoffed the lot, and I never told Lissy...'

I'm unaware of anything around us. The world has narrowed to me and this stranger, and my mouth, spewing out all my innermost thoughts and secrets.

I barely know what I'm saying any more. All I know is, it feels good.

Is this what therapy is like?

name was Danny Nussbaum. Mum and Dad were downstairs watching Ben Hur, and I remember thinking, if this is what the world gets so excited about, then the world's mad...'

'.. lie on my side, because that way your cleavage looks bigger..."

'. works in market research. I remember thinking the very first time I saw him, wow, he's good-looking. He's very tall and blond, because he's half-Swedish, and he has these amazing blue eyes. So he asked me out...'

'... always have a glass of sweet sherry before a date, just to calm my nerves...'

'He's wonderful. Connor's completely wonderful. I'm just so lucky. Everyone's always telling me how great he is. He's sweet, and he's good, and he's successful and everyone calls us the perfect couple...'

'... I'd never tell anyone this in a million years. But sometimes I think he's almost too good-looking. A bit like one of those dolls? Like Ken. Like a blond Ken.'

And now I'm on the subject of Connor, I'm saying things I've never said to anyone. Things I never even realized were in my head.

'… gave him this lovely leather watch for Christmas, but he wears this orange digital thing because it can tell him the temperature in Poland or something stupid...'

... took me to all these jazz concerts and I pretended to enjoy them to be polite, so now he thinks I love jazz.

'... every single Woody Allen film off by heart and says each line before it comes and it drives me crackers..."

'... just looks at me as though I'm speaking some foreign language..."

'... determined to find my G spot, so we spent the whole weekend doing it in different positions, and by the end I was just knackered, all I wanted was a pizza and Friends...'

'... he kept saying, what was it like, what was it like? So in the end I just made some stuff up, I said it was absolutely amazing, and it felt as though my whole body was opening up like a flower, and he said, what sort of flower, so I said a begonia...'

'... can't expect the initial passion to last. But how do you tell if the passion's faded in a good, long-term-commitment way or in a crap, we-don't-fancy-each-other-any-more way...'

'... knight in shining armour is not a realistic option. But there's a part of me that wants a huge, amazing romance. I want passion. I want to be swept off my feet. I want an earthquake, or a... I don't know, a huge whirlwind... something exciting. Sometimes I feel as if there's this whole new, thrilling life waiting for me out there, and if I can just—' 'Excuse me, miss? '

'What? ' I look up dazedly. 'What is it? ' The air hostess with the French plait is smiling down at me. 'We've landed.' I stare at her. 'We've landed? '

This doesn't make sense. How can we have landed? I look around - and sure enough, the plane's still. We're on the ground.

I feel like Dorothy. A second ago I was swirling around in Oz, clicking my heels together, and now I've woken up all flat and quiet and normal again.

'We aren't bumping any more, ' I say stupidly.

'We stopped bumping quite a while ago, ' says the American man.

'We're... we're not going to die.'

'We're not going to die, ' he agrees.

I look at him as though for the first time - and it hits me. I've been blabbering non-stop for an hour to this complete stranger. God alone knows what I've been saying.

I think I want to get off this plane right now.

'I'm sorry, ' I say awkwardly. 'You should have stopped me.'

That would have been a little difficult.' There's a tiny smile at his lips. 'You were on a bit of a roll.'

'I'm so embarrassed! ' I try to smile, but I can't even look this guy in the eye. I mean, I told him about my knickers. I told him about my G spot.

'Don't worry about it. We were all stressed out. That was some flight.' He picks up his knapsack and gets up from his seat - then looks back at me. 'Will you be OK getting back home? '

'Yes. I'll be fine. Thanks. Enjoy your visit! ' I call after him, but I don't think he hears.

Slowly I gather my things together and make my way off the plane. I feel sweaty, my hair's all over the place, and my head is starting to throb.

The airport seems so bright and still and calm after the intense atmosphere of the plane. The ground seems so firm. I sit quietly on a plastic chair for a while, trying to get myself together, but as I stand up at last, I still feel dazed. I walk along in a slight blur, hardly able to believe I'm here. I'm alive. I honestly never thought I'd make it back on the ground.

'Emma! ' I hear someone calling as I come out of Arrivals, but I don't look up. There are loads of Emmas in this world.

'Emma! Over here! '

I raise my head in disbelief. Is that...

No. It can't be, it can't—

It's Connor.

He looks heart-breakingly handsome. His skin has that Scandinavian tan, and his eyes are bluer than ever, and he's running towards me. This makes no sense. What's he doing here? As we reach each other he grabs me and pulls me tight to his chest.

'Thank God, ' he says huskily. 'Thank God. Are you OK? '

'Connor, what— what are you doing here? ' 'I phoned the airline to ask what time you'd be landing, and they told me the plane had hit terrible turbulence. I just had to come to the airport.' He gazes down at me. 'Emma, I watched your plane land. They sent an ambulance straight out to it. Then you didn't appear. I thought..." He swallows hard. 'I don't know exactly what I thought.'

'I'm fine. I was just... trying to get myself together. Oh God, Connor, it was terrifying.' My voice is suddenly all shaky, which is ridiculous, because I'm perfectly safe now. 'At one point I honestly thought I was going to die.'

'When you didn't come through the barrier...' Connor breaks off and stares at me silently for a few seconds. 'I think I realized for the first time quite how deeply I feel about you.'

'Really? ' I falter.

My heart's thumping. I think I might fall over at any moment.

'Emma, I think we should...'

Get married? My heart jumps in fear. Oh my God.

He's going to ask me to marry him, right here in the airport. What am I going to say? I'm not ready to get married. But if I say no he'll stalk off in a huff. Shit. OK. What I'll say is, Gosh, Connor, I need a little time to...

'... move in together, ' he finishes. I am such a deluded moron. Obviously he wasn't going to ask me to marry him. 'What do you think? ' he strokes my hair gently. 'Erm..." I rub my dry face, playing for time, unable to think straight. Move in with Connor. It kind of makes sense. Is there a reason why not? I feel all confused. Something's tugging at my brain; trying to send me a message...

And into my head slide some of the things I said on the plane. Something about never having been properly in love. Something about Connor not really understanding me.

But then... that was just drivel, wasn't it? I mean, I thought I was about to die, for God's sake. I wasn't exactly at my most lucid.

'Connor, what about your big meeting? ' I say, suddenly recalling.

'I cancelled it.'

'You cancelled it? ' I stare at him. 'For me? '

I feel really wobbly now. My legs are barely holding me up. I don't know if it's the aftermath of the plane journey or love.

Oh God, just look at him. He's tall and he's hand­some, and he cancelled a big meeting, and he came to rescue me.

It's love. It has to be love.

'I'd love to move in with you, Connor, ' I whisper, and to my utter astonishment, burst into tears.

 

THREE

 

I wake up the next morning with sunlight dazzling my eyelids and a delicious smell of coffee in the air.

'Morning! ' comes Connor's voice from far above.

'Morning, ' I mumble, without opening my eyes.

'D' you want some coffee? '

'Yes please.'

I turn over and bury my throbbing head in the pillow, trying to sink into sleep again for a couple of minutes. Which normally I would find very easy. But today, something's niggling at me. Have I forgotten something?

As I half listen to Connor clattering around in the kitchen, and the tinny background sound of the telly, my mind gropes blearily around for clues. It's Saturday morning. I'm in Connor's bed. We went out for supper - oh God, that awful plane ride... he came to the airport, and he said...

We're moving in together!

I sit up, just as Connor comes in with two mugs and a cafetiere. He's dressed in a white waffle robe and looks completely gorgeous. I feel a prickle of pride, and reach over to give him a kiss.

'Hi, ' he says, laughing. 'Careful.' He hands me my coffee. 'How are you feeling? '

'All right.' I push my hair back off my face. 'A bit groggy.'

'I'm not surprised.' Connor raises his eyebrows. 'Quite a day yesterday.'

'Absolutely.' I nod, and take a sip of coffee. 'So. We're... going to live together! '

'If you're still on for it? '

'Of course! Of course I am! ' I smile brightly.

And it's true. I am.

I feel as though overnight, I've turned into a grown-up. I'm moving in with my boyfriend. Finally my life is going the way it should!

I'll have to give Andrew notice...' Connor gestures towards the wall, on the other side of which is his flat-mate's room.

'And I'll have to tell Lissy and Jemima.'

'And we'll have to find the right place. And you'll have to promise to keep it tidy.' He gives me a teasing grin.

'I like that! ' I feign outrage. 'You're the one with fifty million CDs.'

'That's different! '

'How is it different, may I ask? ' I plant my hand on my hip, like someone in a sitcom, and Connor laughs.

There's a pause, as though we've both run out of steam, and we take a sip of coffee.

'So anyway, ' says Connor after a while, 'I should get going.' Connor is attending a course on computers this weekend. 'I'm sorry I'll miss your parents, ' he adds.

And he really is. I mean, as if he wasn't already the perfect boyfriend, he actually enjoys visiting my parents.

'That's OK, ' I say benevolently. 'It doesn't matter.'

'Oh, and I forgot to tell you.' Connor gives me a mysterious grin. 'Guess what I've got tickets for? '

'Ooh! ' I say excitedly. 'Urn...'

I'm about to say 'Paris! '

'The jazz festival! ' Connor beams. 'The Dennisson Quartet! It's their last concert of the year. Remember we heard them at Ronnie Scott's? '

For a moment I can't quite speak.

'Wow! ' I manage at last. 'The... Dennisson Quartet! I do remember.'

They played clarinets. On and on and on, for about two hours, without even taking a breath.

'I knew you'd be pleased.' Connor touches my arm affectionately, and I give him a feeble smile.

'Oh, lam! '

The thing is, I probably will get to like jazz one day. In fact, I'm positive I will.

I watch fondly as he gets dressed, flosses his teeth and picks up his briefcase.

'You wore my present, ' he says with a pleased smile, glancing at my discarded underwear on the floor.

'I... often wear them, ' I say, crossing my fingers behind my back. 'They're so gorgeous! '

'Have a lovely day with your family.' Connor comes over to the bed to kiss me, and then hesitates. 'Emma? '

'Yes? '

He sits down on the bed and gazes seriously at me. Gosh, his eyes are so blue.

'There's something I wanted to say.' He bites his lip. 'You know we always speak frankly to each other about our relationship.'

'Er... yes, ' I say, feeling a little apprehensive.

'This is just an idea. You may not like it. I mean... it's completely up to you.'

I gaze at Connor in puzzlement. His face is growing pink, and he looks really embarrassed.

Oh my God. Is he going to start getting kinky? Does he want me to dress up in outfits and stuff?

I wouldn't mind being a nurse, actually. Or Catwoman from Batman. That would be cool. I could get some shiny boots...

'I was thinking that... perhaps... we could..." He stops awkwardly.

'Yes? ' I put a supportive hand on his arm.

'We could..." He stops again.

'Yes? '

There's another silence. I almost can't breathe. What does he want us to do? What?

'We could start calling each other " darling", ' he says in an embarrassed rush.

'What? ' I say blankly.

'It's just that...' Connor flushes pinker. 'We're going to be living together. It's quite a commitment. And I noticed recently, we never seem to use any... terms of endearment.'

I stare at him, feeling caught out.

'Don't we? '

'No.'

'Oh.' I take a sip of coffee. Now I think about it, he's right. We don't. Why don't we?

'So what do you think? Only if you want to.'

'Absolutely! ' I say quickly. 'I mean, you're right. Of course we should.' I clear my throat. 'Darling! '

'Thanks, darling, ' he says, with a loving smile, and I smile back, trying to ignore the tiny protests inside my head.

This doesn't feel right.

I don't feel like a darling.

Darling is a married person with pearls and a four-wheel-drive.

'Emma? ' Connor's staring at me. 'Is something wrong? '

'I'm not sure! ' I give a self-conscious laugh. 'I just don't know if I feel like a " darling". But... you know. It may grow on me.'

'Really? Well, we can use something else. What about " dear"? '

Dear? Is he serious?

'No, ' I say quickly. 'I think " darling" is better.'

'Or " sweetheart"... " honey"... " angel"..."

'Maybe. Look, can we just leave it? '

Connor's face falls, and I feel bad. Come on. I can call my boyfriend 'darling', for God's sake. This is what growing up's all about. I'm just going to have to get used to it.

'Connor, I'm sorry, ' I say. 'I don't know what's wrong with me. Maybe I'm still a bit tense after that flight.' I take his hand. 'Darling.'

'That's all right, darling.' He smiles back at me, his sunny expression restored, and gives me a kiss. 'See you later.'

You see. Easy.

Oh God.

Anyway. It doesn't matter. I expect all couples have this kind of awkward-ish moment. It's probably perfectly normal.

It takes me about half an hour to get from Connor's place in Maida Vale to Islington, which is where I live, and as I open the door I find Lissy on the sofa. She's surrounded by papers and has a frown of concentra­tion on her face. She works so hard, Lissy. She really overdoes it sometimes.

'What are you working on? ' I say sympathetically. 'Is it that fraud case? '

'No, it's this article, ' says Lissy abstractly, and lifts up a glossy magazine. 'It says since the days of Cleopatra, the proportions of beauty have been the same, and there's a way to work out how beautiful you are, scientifically. You do all these measurements...'

'Oh right! ' I say interestedly. 'So what are you? '

'I'm just working it out.' She frowns at the page again. 'That makes 53... subtract 20... makes... Oh my God! ' She stares at the page in dismay. 'I only got 33! '

'Out of what? '

'A hundred! 33 out of a hundred! '

'Oh Lissy. That's crap.'

'I know, ' says Lissy seriously. 'I'm ugly. I knew it. You know, all my life I've kind of secretly known, but—'

'No! ' I say, trying not to laugh. 'I meant the maga­zine's crap! You can't measure beauty with some stupid index. Just look at you! ' I gesture at Lissy, who has the biggest grey eyes in the world, and gorgeous clear pale skin and is frankly stunning, even if her last haircut was a bit severe. 'I mean, who are you going to believe? The mirror or a stupid mindless magazine article? '

'A stupid mindless magazine article, ' says Lissy, as though it's perfectly obvious.

I know she's half joking. But ever since her boyfriend Simon chucked her, Lissy's had really low self-esteem. I'm actually a bit worried about her.

'Is that the golden proportion of beauty? ' says our other flatmate Jemima, tapping into the room in her kitten heels. She's wearing pale pink jeans and a tight white top and as usual, she looks perfectly tanned and groomed. In theory, Jemima has a job, working in a sculpture gallery. But all she ever seems to do is have bits of her waxed and plucked and massaged, and go on dates with city bankers, whose salary she always checks out before she says yes.

I do get on with Jemima. Kind of. It's just that she tends to begin all her sentences 'If you want a rock on your finger, ' and 'If you want an SW3 address, ' and 'If you want to be known as a seriously good dinner-party hostess.'

I mean, I wouldn't mind being known as a seriously good dinner-party hostess. You know. It's just not exactly highest on my list of priorities right now.

Plus, Jemima's idea of being a seriously good dinner-party hostess is inviting lots of rich friends over, decorating the whole flat with twiggy things, getting caterers to cook loads of yummy food and telling everyone she made it herself, then sending her flat mates (me and Lissy) out to the cinema for the night and looking affronted when they dare creep back in at midnight and make themselves a hot chocolate.

'I did that quiz, ' she says now, picking up her pink Louis Vuitton bag. Her dad bought it for her as a present when she broke up with a guy after three dates. Like she was heartbroken.

Mind you, he had a yacht, so she probably was heart-broken.

'What did you get? ' says Lissy.

'Eighty-nine.' She spritzes herself with perfume, tosses her long blond hair back and smiles at herself in the mirror. 'So Emma, is it true you're moving in with Connor? ' I gape at her.

'How did you know that? '

'Word on the street. Andrew called Rupes this morning about cricket, and he told him.'

'Are you moving in with Connor? ' says Lissy incred­ulously. 'Why didn't you tell me? '

'I was about to, honestly. Isn't it great? '

'Bad move, Emma.' Jemima shakes her head. 'Very bad tactics.'

'Tactics? ' says Lissy, rolling her eyes. 'Tactics? Jemima, they're having a relationship, not playing chess! '

'A relationship is a game of chess, ' retorts Jemima, brushing mascara onto her lashes. 'Mummy says you always have to look ahead. You have to plan strategi­cally. If you make the wrong move, you've had it.'

'That's rubbish! ' says Lissy defiantly. 'A relation­ship is about like minds. It's about soulmates finding each other.'

'Soulmates! ' says Jemima dismissively, and looks at me. 'Just remember, Emma, if ' you want a rock on your finger, don't move in with Connor.'

Her eyes give a swift, Pavlovian glance to the photo­graph on the mantelpiece of her meeting Prince William at a charity polo match.

'Still holding out for Royalty? ' says Lissy. 'How much younger is he than you, again, Jemima? '

'Don't be stupid! ' she snaps, colour tinging her cheeks. 'You're so immature sometimes, Lissy.'

'Anyway, I don't want a rock on my finger, ' I retort.

Jemima raises her perfectly arched eyebrows as though to say, 'you poor, ignorant fool', and picks up her bag.

'Oh, ' she suddenly adds, her eyes narrowing. 'Has either of you borrowed my Joseph jumper? '

There's a tiny beat of silence.

'No, ' I say innocently.

'I don't even know which one it is, ' says Lissy, with a shrug. "

I can't look at Lissy. I'm sure I saw her wearing it the other night.

Jemima's blue eyes are running over me and Lissy like some kind of radar scanners.

'Because I have very slender arms, ' she says warningly, 'and I really don't want the sleeves stretched. And don't think I won't notice, because I will. Ciao.'

The minute she's gone Lissy and I look at each other.

'Shit, ' says Lissy. 'I think I left it at work. Oh well, I'll pick it up on Monday.' She shrugs and goes back to reading the magazine.

OK. So the truth is, we do both occasionally borrow Jemima's clothes. Without asking. But in our defence, she has so many, she hardly ever notices. Plus according to Lissy, it's a basic human right that flat-mates should be able to borrow each others' clothes. She says it's practically part of the unwritten British constitution.

'And anyway, ' adds Lissy, 'she owes it to me for writing her that letter to the council about all her parking tickets. You know, she never even said thank you.' She looks up from an article on Nicole Kidman. 'So what are you doing later on? D' you want to see a film? '

'I can't, ' I say reluctantly. 'I've got my mum's birthday lunch.'

'Oh yes, of course.' She pulls a sympathetic face. 'Good luck. I hope it's OK.'

Lissy is the only person in the world who has any idea how I feel about visiting home. And even she doesn't know it all.

 






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